When I do pull the trigger, tell them that it was murder.
Tell them that the finger may have been mine, but the hand at play was theirs.
When I do pull the trigger, tell them that never mislaid was my laughter.
But also tell them that for true joyousness I was too maimed.
When I do pull the trigger, say for us a silent prayer.
Say for me that I did not betray your love.
When I do pull the trigger, do not ask how could I dare!
Say that you knew the train I hopped off.
When I do pull the trigger, piece me together for the world to see better.
Maybe in the end will they find more appeal.
When I do pull the trigger, do not shed tears over me after,
But whisper yet another secret to my lips as the last kiss you steal.
When I do pull the trigger, hold me once and forgive my all,
The wrongs I did, and all my faults.
When I do pull the trigger, in eternity will the peace be sought.
And may I not haunt your tomorrow.
When I do pull the trigger, know that I didn't mind the ache,
It probably is all of me that will remain.
When I do pull the trigger, I hope to leave no mess in my wake,
Hope that you know that I couldn't let go of the pain.
