When I do...

When I do pull the trigger, tell them that it was murder.

Tell them that the finger may have been mine, but the hand at play was theirs.

When I do pull the trigger, tell them that never mislaid was my laughter.

But also tell them that for true joyousness I was too maimed.

When I do pull the trigger, say for us a silent prayer.

Say for me that I did not betray your love.

When I do pull the trigger, do not ask how could I dare!

Say that you knew the train I hopped off.

When I do pull the trigger, piece me together for the world to see better.

Maybe in the end will they find more appeal.

When I do pull the trigger, do not shed tears over me after,

But whisper yet another secret to my lips as the last kiss you steal.

When I do pull the trigger, hold me once and forgive my all,

The wrongs I did, and all my faults.

When I do pull the trigger, in eternity will the peace be sought.

And may I not haunt your tomorrow.

When I do pull the trigger, know that I didn't mind the ache,

It probably is all of me that will remain.

When I do pull the trigger, I hope to leave no mess in my wake,

Hope that you know that I couldn't let go of the pain.